CW: Discussion of self-harm, death & medications.
01/01/2025:
Feeling: Don't want to focus
Listening: Desert Island by Horse Head, YAWNS
Wanting to keep a consistent journal on here may prove difficult to me, either way its the new year and I feel like i should try do this again ;p I didn't even realise i was new years yesterday until like midday, we didn't do anything special or stay up i was sleepy lmao xD Mostly been enjoying videos from Lucky & Vaugn Gene currently. I've been meaning to read Beastar's and Lucky's vids on TikTok are convincing me. I watch too many YouTube videos in one day to really list them all individually and I kindaa don't feel like I have too many comments to make, caught up on the new Defunctland as well that is always fun. I have a handful of Youtubers I currently watch/try to keep up to date with maybe I'll make a list. SerpaDesign & Jacob Geller are two I try to always watch basically every video of, I started watching Jacob Geller's vids with my partner tho so i gotta wait for them to catch up on new things. My birthday is in 9 days (crazy) and my parents want me to looks for a normal job but thats probs not gonna happen lol. Idk if I mentioned I completed an art course certicate recently and had a small gallery on campus + got spoken to by a gallery curator so I've got some other things going on. I plan on making a new Instagram (the account is stardog2003) to post art to because apparently these days art galleries mostly care about Instagram as a portfolio/showing of interest in your work rather than doing anything else so I'll go through and post a bunch from my archive/new stuff to there when i can be bothered.
Other 2025 plans include finishing that pixel anthro wolf tarot deck
i think I'll also make a non-pixel version of the deck where I draw it irl with markers and scan it? that'll be after the pixel/digital version is complete. I'm worried of posting much of a tarot deck if I make one due to fear of companies stealing/mass reprinting artists things (idrc if ppl reprint stuff individually for themselves) but itd suck major to work on a whole tarot deck (the arts the hard part) then have someone resell it TwT. Since Ideally I'd love to be able to upload every single card and have a completely online deck that you can pull cards from. Maybe I'll do that just with the pixel version and have at least the hand drawn cards not uploaded? We will see I guess. Other plans for 2025 Is I wish to practise music in some form properly, my only plan at this point is to learn some basic guitar (I did violin in school so I'm not unfamiliar with string instruments) and hopefully do some covers of simple songs TwT Other than that I'm probs going to go crazier on getting more tattoos this year, I'll make a counter of sorts for that and I guess I'll add it to my about page? My next tattoo plans are the skeletons/leaves from Bright eyes 'Every Day and Every Night' and one of the sketches of the Bad Batter from Off by Mortis Ghost
I'll still be taking commissions in 2025 but I'm always trying to lower that intake so i can work on personal things. Lowkey having Arcane brainrot as well (very unfortunate), watched the new season as it was coming out which is always fun to participate in (plus I avoided all spoilers since i don't have a phone after smashing it months ago). The Arcane obsession will probably lead to me making some kinnie art/fanficiton (ok it already has but nothing I'm gonna upload at this point)
I prefered season 1 a lot more I think but season 2 was still enjoyable. I've got minor plans for my birthday this year but we will see if i get through this one without crying xp I had a panic attack/breakdown on my 21st which started from me thinking about the fact my cat will die one day :( it progressed from there to other stuff but yeah, it was also a weird/tense day just cause I had to see my parents. I will be seeing them again this year but things I can kinda handle with them moreso these days since me and my mum got closer during my month of panic attacks or whatever that was TwT' I relapsed w/ SH for the first time since idk the beginning of the year in December it was minor i guess but I stopped Prozac after that, I'd been on it for idk a few weeks or a month but after the relapse i stopped. My mum wants me to try Lexapro cause shes on it but i hate the idea of pills i need to take everyday but idk I'll probably still trial it to see. Anway here is my cat she flipped herself for the photo idk she rolls around a lot
Signing off for now at 2:52pm.
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Old journal entries are avaible through the archive.
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Feeling: Don't want to focus
Listening: Desert Island by Horse Head, YAWNS
Wanting to keep a consistent journal on here may prove difficult to me, either way its the new year and I feel like i should try do this again ;p I didn't even realise i was new years yesterday until like midday, we didn't do anything special or stay up i was sleepy lmao xD Mostly been enjoying videos from Lucky & Vaugn Gene currently. I've been meaning to read Beastar's and Lucky's vids on TikTok are convincing me. I watch too many YouTube videos in one day to really list them all individually and I kindaa don't feel like I have too many comments to make, caught up on the new Defunctland as well that is always fun. I have a handful of Youtubers I currently watch/try to keep up to date with maybe I'll make a list. SerpaDesign & Jacob Geller are two I try to always watch basically every video of, I started watching Jacob Geller's vids with my partner tho so i gotta wait for them to catch up on new things. My birthday is in 9 days (crazy) and my parents want me to looks for a normal job but thats probs not gonna happen lol. Idk if I mentioned I completed an art course certicate recently and had a small gallery on campus + got spoken to by a gallery curator so I've got some other things going on. I plan on making a new Instagram (the account is stardog2003) to post art to because apparently these days art galleries mostly care about Instagram as a portfolio/showing of interest in your work rather than doing anything else so I'll go through and post a bunch from my archive/new stuff to there when i can be bothered.
Other 2025 plans include finishing that pixel anthro wolf tarot deck
i think I'll also make a non-pixel version of the deck where I draw it irl with markers and scan it? that'll be after the pixel/digital version is complete. I'm worried of posting much of a tarot deck if I make one due to fear of companies stealing/mass reprinting artists things (idrc if ppl reprint stuff individually for themselves) but itd suck major to work on a whole tarot deck (the arts the hard part) then have someone resell it TwT. Since Ideally I'd love to be able to upload every single card and have a completely online deck that you can pull cards from. Maybe I'll do that just with the pixel version and have at least the hand drawn cards not uploaded? We will see I guess. Other plans for 2025 Is I wish to practise music in some form properly, my only plan at this point is to learn some basic guitar (I did violin in school so I'm not unfamiliar with string instruments) and hopefully do some covers of simple songs TwT Other than that I'm probs going to go crazier on getting more tattoos this year, I'll make a counter of sorts for that and I guess I'll add it to my about page? My next tattoo plans are the skeletons/leaves from Bright eyes 'Every Day and Every Night' and one of the sketches of the Bad Batter from Off by Mortis Ghost
I'll still be taking commissions in 2025 but I'm always trying to lower that intake so i can work on personal things. Lowkey having Arcane brainrot as well (very unfortunate), watched the new season as it was coming out which is always fun to participate in (plus I avoided all spoilers since i don't have a phone after smashing it months ago). The Arcane obsession will probably lead to me making some kinnie art/fanficiton (ok it already has but nothing I'm gonna upload at this point)
I prefered season 1 a lot more I think but season 2 was still enjoyable. I've got minor plans for my birthday this year but we will see if i get through this one without crying xp I had a panic attack/breakdown on my 21st which started from me thinking about the fact my cat will die one day :( it progressed from there to other stuff but yeah, it was also a weird/tense day just cause I had to see my parents. I will be seeing them again this year but things I can kinda handle with them moreso these days since me and my mum got closer during my month of panic attacks or whatever that was TwT' I relapsed w/ SH for the first time since idk the beginning of the year in December it was minor i guess but I stopped Prozac after that, I'd been on it for idk a few weeks or a month but after the relapse i stopped. My mum wants me to try Lexapro cause shes on it but i hate the idea of pills i need to take everyday but idk I'll probably still trial it to see. Anway here is my cat she flipped herself for the photo idk she rolls around a lot
Signing off for now at 2:52pm.
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Old journal entries are avaible through the archive.
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