Gallery
This is a mix of personal/commission work.2024
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Journal:
23/11/2024Feeling: Stupid
Listening: we think too much - Lil Peep
Put on 20mg of Prozac since the 13th, as well as given multiple other things for sleep and panic attacks... Many thoughts and feelings about this but I'll fight the urge to delete old blog posts in shame and continue to update this I guess. I have had some recent steps towards irl gallery work, this is exciting. Nothing left to say.
24/10/2024
Feeling: Strange
Listening: life - awakebutstillinbed
Left class early cause i was getting anxious + i've had a weird week of experiences that relate/discuss death and have had some scary conversations. also still feeling psychic damage so bad i got scared of the sky and fighting of panic for a lot of the day... i hope to make more art and music about these feelings one day but for now they're too much to even handle on a daily basis so for now we cope i guess.
21/10/2024
Feeling: Okay..
Listening: the ghost of bob saget - Car Seat Headrest
I have been playing webfishing :3 and i need to be working on my art assignments but i'm procrastinating and working on this site for now... I have been feeling not great still but i got shit to do so we power on..
16/10/2024
Feeling: Too much.
Listening: Rough Terrain (Reprise) - Born Without Bones
This is a difficult update to make but essentially a horrible mix of 1 week before period/panic disorder/phobias has lead me to have 8 days of non-stop panic attacks so I have basically been hand held by many people in my life (and possibly on stage 4 of grief about mortality/existence). I really cannot convey to you how traumatic its felt but I still feel heartbroken currently on how small and lost humans are in the universe. It's been difficult and I feel like I've somewhat dramatically shifted again as a person and thats always aggravating. I don't know if this post is making any sense, I wrote and then deleted a lot from it. i don't know theres a lot of grief being processed for me at the moment. i feel like i always do things slightly wrong. i hope i'm okay with how it feels to be a human and exist one day (and i hope i don't fear death one day and feel peace like the others around me & i don't want to feel alone). but i fear i will never stop feeling alien here.
7/10/2024:
Feeling: Terrified
Unable to sleep second night in a row of panic attacks/spiralling about thinking about my partner dying/me dying and how terrifying not knowing what happens to our souls after this life is (I am 100% convinced its nothing/lights out forever, conceptualizing this also activates a panic attack loll)!! And other scary universe/consciousness things!!!! Okay I can't talk anymore on the subject or I won't handle it and I'll actually fucking vomit it feels so painful in my body to be so scared of this all... Signing off at a restless 1:44am.
30/09/2024:
Feeling: Overwhelmed
Listening: 4 - Car Seat Headrest
I severely underestimated the amount of art I have done ;w; and I'm not even uploading all of it just my top picks I guess and things I think best show the progression (since I originally wanted to wipe all my old art from the web, but I feel its a waste to not keep a small public archive). I need to dig up old homestuck fanart too but I gotta sift through folder loads of furry art from the years so it'll be a while till my gallery is up to date... Goodnight again from Aus at 2:06am.
29/09/2024:
Feeling: Tired
Listening: So You Wanna Be A Superhero - Carissa's Weird
Trying to make this site readable b4 I sleep TwT goodnight from 2:53am Aus.
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End of journal updates.
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